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Post by billusion on Feb 7, 2018 21:39:52 GMT
i have never felt like i belong here
i am bored beyond belief.
i see uninteresting vacuous programmed shells around me
the technology has made it all worse.
i got so angry today because i talked to 10 young people who didn't know what liverwurst is.
i go to the coffeeshop and everybody is prissy perfect with their bubble butts and fashionable clothing, busy on their cell phones or ipads. they're all completely oblivious to anything and everything
i have nothing to do on internet anymore. i have no interest in sex. even drinking beer is boring as i can barely stomach 6 times a month.
i struggle to eat and fast most of the day.
i'm in LA LA LAND. i'm invisible to the robots around me.
i walk everyday and do some exercise just so i don't fade away into some twilight zone, but maybe i'm already there?
how did i end up in this world? it doesn't make sense
****please excuse my lack of writing skills but i don't give a shit*****
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Post by Deleted on Feb 8, 2018 0:22:38 GMT
I am still wondering from where I - or we - come from.
Differentiating between Earth as planet and World as how we treat it as its inhabitants, I would say yes, I do belong here for the time given, and even when I am not of this world, what else keeps us going other than curiosity? Is it possible to overcome destructive loops, from an individual level to a global scale?
You ever know when the journey ends here, and death is but a transition to another one.
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Post by Deleted on Feb 8, 2018 0:26:07 GMT
It is winter, that brings down many people. I recommend a mix of vigorous exercise (sweating! and Sauna is exercise too), and lots of sleep / naps / slumber time. Twilight zone often turns out to having been a recreational phase - sooner or later, your bore out will bore you  |
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Post by Deleted on Feb 8, 2018 0:26:56 GMT
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Post by billusion on Feb 8, 2018 1:16:39 GMT
I am still wondering from where I - or we - come from. Differentiating between Earth as planet and World as how we treat it as its inhabitants, I would say yes, I do belong here for the time given, and even when I am not of this world, what else keeps us going other than curiosity? Is it possible to overcome destructive loops, from an individual level to a global scale? You ever know when the journey ends here, and death is but a transition to another one. were you even 'born'? your parents tell you but did it really happen? i am only curious how to get out of here never to come back |
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Post by billusion on Feb 8, 2018 1:19:52 GMT
It is winter, that brings down many people. I recommend a mix of vigorous exercise (sweating! and Sauna is exercise too), and lots of sleep / naps / slumber time. Twilight zone often turns out to having been a recreational phase - sooner or later, your bore out will bore you i have been bored since i entered this world. all people do is work. i don't think i'm depressed. i think i look at this world realistically. this world has no appeal at all. look at what you do 7 days a week. is it really exciting? |
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Post by billusion on Feb 8, 2018 1:21:42 GMT
it's sunny here and 80F. not really winter. |
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Post by billusion on Feb 8, 2018 1:25:17 GMT
creative versus destructive is relative
is there really anything worth preserving?
is there really life here?
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Post by Deleted on Feb 8, 2018 8:40:30 GMT
I am still wondering from where I - or we - come from. Differentiating between Earth as planet and World as how we treat it as its inhabitants, I would say yes, I do belong here for the time given, and even when I am not of this world, what else keeps us going other than curiosity? Is it possible to overcome destructive loops, from an individual level to a global scale? You ever know when the journey ends here, and death is but a transition to another one. were you even 'born'? your parents tell you but did it really happen? i am only curious how to get out of here never to come back My theory is, you have to have made peace on earth within yourself, otherwise you or your ego is not able to let go totally and leave this realm, when your time has come. And suicide is never a shortcut, I think it lenghtens your time for trying to cheat. If you just want to exit and think somewhere else it is better - you always take yourself with you. |
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Post by Deleted on Feb 8, 2018 8:49:20 GMT
It is winter, that brings down many people. I recommend a mix of vigorous exercise (sweating! and Sauna is exercise too), and lots of sleep / naps / slumber time. Twilight zone often turns out to having been a recreational phase - sooner or later, your bore out will bore you i have been bored since i entered this world. all people do is work. i don't think i'm depressed. i think i look at this world realistically. this world has no appeal at all. look at what you do 7 days a week. is it really exciting? Do I need excitement 7 days a week? Not really, as I am happy my life is flowing like it does, and when there is excitement, I ride it until it phases out. I understand your view, but who am I to try and change your perspective? Do you think the world owes you? Why should it offer you something, when your stance is, nothing appeals to me anyway? |
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Post by Deleted on Feb 8, 2018 8:53:23 GMT
it's sunny here and 80F. not really winter. Fucking imperial system, but yes, that is warm. -6C it is where I am. |
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Post by Billusion on Feb 8, 2018 14:55:55 GMT
Ego is a CONcept based on your definition of ego
You do nothing but labor. 40 days week work. Hygiene labor. Chores of cleaning,laundry,mowing lawn,washing car. Working out,fitness labor
This labor world has no value.
In exchange for labor you chase mind control of sex,love,television
You have inane conversations on prison cell phones and eye pads on forums like this
You feed off each other or alpha male each other
I will get out of here
I won't do the script
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Post by Billusion on Feb 8, 2018 14:58:41 GMT
You are programmed
All you write are beLIEfs
You know nothing
I speak truth
This nothing but a labor world
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Post by Billusion on Feb 8, 2018 15:04:57 GMT
Everything you do is pointless and meaningless
Caylus runs this site the same reason why p-man posts on here
Feed me in my brilliance. Observe my brilliant words
You are like dogs. Alpha male each other.
Blue monarch forum is my last website until i give up internet. It's useless crap
I will get out of this world
I won't do the script
The end
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Post by Billusion on Feb 8, 2018 15:06:58 GMT
Even off grid and homeless is labor
This world has nothing to offer
Just destroy it already
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Post by Billusion on Feb 8, 2018 15:11:20 GMT
You don't create your reality. It's scripted by a megalomaniac
You labor
That is it
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Post by Billusion on Feb 8, 2018 15:13:19 GMT
You are being scripted zen
Unfortunately
No point in communicating
You are all the same thing
Bye
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Post by Billusion on Feb 8, 2018 15:27:22 GMT
Script cancelled
Watch and learn
My will be done
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Post by Billusion on Feb 8, 2018 15:38:59 GMT
By the way
I am not The One
I am also not a name. I am not the nobody. I am not the anomoly. I am not Jesus or Satan or Blue Monarch
I am NOT THE SCRIPTWRITER
i create nothing as i get nothing I'm interested in
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Post by Billusion on Feb 8, 2018 15:54:40 GMT
were you even 'born'? your parents tell you but did it really happen? i am only curious how to get out of here never to come back My theory is, you have to have made peace on earth within yourself, otherwise you or your ego is not able to let go totally and leave this realm, when your time has come. And suicide is never a shortcut, I think it lenghtens your time for trying to cheat. If you just want to exit and think somewhere else it is better - you always take yourself with you. The manipulation will not work I will leave whenever i want It takes 2 to tango Too bad for you i know enough You need me I do not need you Bye |
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