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Post by Oh look on May 23, 2018 3:18:58 GMT
It's CM again....yawn....
Dude you are a habitual liar. Your pass-agg attempts to loosh are pathetic. Honestly, you are a fool and a charlatan of the highest order.
I really enjoyed that video of you getting your ass kicked, I'm sure you smarted off and deserved it.
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Post by CM on May 23, 2018 3:31:03 GMT
It's CM again....yawn.... Dude you are a habitual liar. Your pass-agg attempts to loosh are pathetic. Honestly, you are a fool and a charlatan of the highest order. I really enjoyed that video of you getting your ass kicked, I'm sure you smarted off and deserved it. I completely own being a fool and have been for quite a long time. I've made more mistakes than I care to think about and I'm sure you won't be the only one to bring them up. Trust me, I'm used to it. But you know what, I can still at least move forward and everyone has the opportunity to at least learn from their mistakes and strive towards bettering themselves. I'm not beyond reproach that much is certain and I'm perfectly willing to own up to my shortcomings and hold myself accountable. I'm not seeking any sort of pity party either. I will even own being a habitual liar. It's a really shitty and unhealthy defense mechanism that I developed early on and am only now starting to learn to let go of. It's funny though, here I am baring my soul and allowing myself to be vulnerable. If I wasn't at least trying to be a better person I would just keep going on as if nothing happened, or I could act out and somehow challenge your brutally honest assertions but I'm not doing that. Glad you enjoyed the video though! Seriously though, no one can even come close to insulting me or putting me down or making me feel like an absolute shitbag better than I do already to myself on a daily basis. I wish you the best though, whoever you are, wherever you are, and I thank you for being a mirror to allow me to see myself as others see me so that I can make adjustments and grow more.
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Post by Caylus Ark on May 25, 2018 5:56:56 GMT
I am really honored that you shared this. It takes a huge person to be vulnerable like this, so please have some grace and see the strength you hold to face your past with integrity and being willing to look towards the future. Much love CM. Don't mind the assholes. I'm proud of you for taking steps towards recovery and fuck the professionals who say you will not be yourself again. You will. The brain is holographic and more elastic than we knows. It is something scientists are just now discovering, the permeability and resistance of our brain. And remember you are NOT your brain. You are your consciousness and you transcend the host of your experience. Even if it is damaged, you will always remain you in whole. If some parts of the computer to access "you" don't work right, you just got to learn how to transverse alternate paths to your inner destination. It will take time...I am confronting that journey myself. I don't know if I will ever be "healthy". But we are alive and we can love and we can connect. We take joy in this moment and seize the day. So thank you for sharing your diam.
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Post by Deleted on May 25, 2018 8:03:29 GMT
Welcome back to the forum CM. The best thing about being crazy is that perspective is gained.
As far as I am concerned your ok in my books. Whatever was doesn't really exist anymore, not really and the only thing anyone ever has to gain or loose that ultimately matters, is trust. In a reality according to Chris of course and other people will surely disagree with my assessment of meaning. You see at the atomic level I would equate trust to a bond, so they are the same thing if you want 'matter'
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