[ti]sword[/ti]Just the facts

all other topics are exhausted now (quantum this and that, alien that and this, astral interdimensional and the other, pow boom bang), everything is boring now, what is there to talk about? there is only role playing and fantasy now right? whats the point, what is there to do? what should we be interested in? how should we spend our time? what is fun? now all there is to do is be back like the elk again, chewing on some leaves, down by the river, sighh, its boring, lets lock some horns? yes, lets bang our heads together over and over, that might be fun

typical response from Sol. If someone points out something he doesn't like (the truth, usually), he dismisses it and doesn't address it. The equivalent of sticking his fingers in his ears and singing 'lalalalalala!'

...Meaning without providing references to the original source. Am in a hurry.

If they felt I had nothing to offer, that's honestly their loss and probably in the long run better for me, since I am not throwing content at a wall i don't own anymore and now the quality material i make is wholly mine. If they have never seen the value in my work, it is really no skin off my back.

You have said this many time. I understand that you feel you meant it a certain way and it was "misconstrued" but the fact remains that you signed another member's user name to a red karma post ("Merit") after having constant conflict with that member and making your dislike of him known. If you had signed "Merit" to someone's karma who is not a mod, they would have believed that it was Merit himself doing that. So, while you say that you knew Lady Jane would see that it was you, at the end of the day it was something that you really shouldn't have done. You could have said "Because of not banning Merit" or whatever you intended but you typed HIS NAME. How else did you expect anyone to take that? And you did it to an senior admin who is good friends with him. Before you left that red karma, you had made an obvious bait thread with a short story that was obviously about Merit with a character that was likely intended to be Mila. Then you outed yourself by freaking out with Serpent Maiden/Iset and you were already on permaban for whatever reason. You see how this is going? 

Honestly, you could have posted there freely and even used other IDs. Lots of people do that. It's not an issue to make other IDs. But you handled it SO poorly and you let your emotions and the weird blind hatred of Facts cloud your judgement. Not to mention all the shit you talked about GLP on here. 

Listen, we all know GLP is a fascinatingly weird place that, for whatever reason, draws people in. Maybe it's that people are always seeking and searching and they think that someone out there will have an "answer" for all the things they feel. I get it.  But at the end of the day, Trin and Co run a business and they have rules. You may disagree with those rules but ultimately it's their right to kick out anyone who doesn't follow the rules. Like being expelled from school. You pissed off admin by the way you acted. Numerous people have told you that. There's no conspiracy. You just broke their rules. 

As for ever returning to GLP, I don't know. Maybe amends could be made. I have no idea.

Well, I had no intention of pretending to sign a name. I let my temper get way out of hand and that's unfortunate. I highly doubt returning to GLP is foreseeable. But it could be that fact is protecting me; it was GLP that pushed me past the edge of sanity ultimately. And some may think it ill of me to blame them, but without that platform I'd be in a very different place today. The obsession wasn't healthy for me. I'm trying to invest myself in reality. It would be nice to be on good terms with glp but i suspect merely owning this forum has made that impossible to ask. I have no intention of causing trouble, but beyond apologies there isn't much I can do right now.

Now, I am willing to acknowledge Fact's power and say that I respect that power, because it is true that he is strong. But I have my own merits, and my apology doesn't entail placating those who dislike me by pretending I've never done anything good.

I don't expect any apology, I don't even expect respect from them. But I think we can bury the hatchet. There is nothing left to fight over. If the crew thinks my worth is not meritable, we are all entitled to our own opinions.

So, then make it a book. Do something with it if it means a lot to you.

I could write a best seller that sells millions of copies and there will still be people that hate it. It's how it is. I did read some of your more recent blog posts and I told you they are interesting and thought out. Probably not the greatest of things to have a blog post about GLP, LJS, admin, and Facts though. I am not into censorship so I don't think you should take it down but maybe a new blog about what's gone down since that last post? Things have changed, I'd say. 

You are young. You are at a point in your life where everything is chaos. The 20s are hard. I get that you're on a journey to basically find yourself and that there are other issues at play but don't be a victim. It's the worst thing to be. Own it. All of it. It's the best things for our psyches to just OWN OUR OWN SHIT. That puts you in control. Not someone else. 

See? I'm not mean. I'm not a "troll". I'm just someone out there in the big wide world.