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Post by Caylus Ark on Mar 12, 2017 19:06:07 GMT
I had sleep paralysis again while in the residential treatment center.
It was one night in their big room. I woke up and the darkness flickered with a splotch of bright light.
I tried to move, but I couldn't. So I moved my eyes.
About five to six feet away from me, I saw a hovering specter. It had a hood. It had a scythe. It was bony.
I told myself, "It's not real. It's my sleep paralysis. It's just a hallucination".
But it didn't dampen the terror I felt as I struggled to move, to get away from it, and couldn't do anything.
Lu said, "it can't come near you". And it didn't.
However, when it was looking straight at me, I heard a voice in my head.
It said, "The gates of hell are now open -" And I saw an image of Baphomet with the downward facing seal.
Then it said, "You messed around with these forces too long" - and I saw the image of a void drawn into the ground.
I blacked out. I woke up again in my bed.
And then...I was scared. I was no longer paralyzed, so I faced the wall in the bedroom, away from the floor where the demon had been.
I heard another voice this time.
It hissed like a snake.
It said my name,
"D-----".....
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Post by OYE on Mar 12, 2017 19:13:05 GMT
Wake Up Doctor Green
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Post by Caylus Ark on Mar 12, 2017 19:27:36 GMT
I'll show you the picture that appeared in my mind when the voice was talking about Baphomet and the seal... The seal is this  Then of course, Baphomet... something like this....but less detailed (can't find the exact picture again right now)  Now I don't mean this to alarm anyone...it terrified me. And, I don't want it. I don't know what it wants with me. |
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Post by OYE on Mar 12, 2017 19:38:43 GMT
Darrah you don't have to sell your soul to the devil you know
You are already his daughter
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Post by Caylus Ark on Mar 12, 2017 19:40:07 GMT
Darrah you don't have to sell your soul to the devil you know You are already his daughter So they seem to want to tell me. I am not buying it. I'd never sell my soul. Sometimes though, I think "something" wants to take it. I fight like hell everyday but it's not enough right now. Hah. But I am not a "victim" to it - I'm a warrior. I want to be a paladin, if others are fighting too. |
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Post by OYE on Mar 12, 2017 19:45:04 GMT
Darrah you don't have to sell your soul to the devil you know You are already his daughter So they seem to want to tell me. I am not buying it. I'd never sell my soul. Sometimes though, I think "something" wants to take it. I fight like hell everyday but it's not enough right now. Hah. But I am not a "victim" to it - I'm a warrior. I want to be a paladin, if others are fighting too. You are simply in the phase right now of where you are afraid of who you truly are Darrah Once you become one with who you are.. you will much more at peace |
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Post by OYE on Mar 12, 2017 19:45:39 GMT
You are one of The Devil's Main Creative Angels
Yes.. The Devil has Angels
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Post by OYE on Mar 12, 2017 19:47:56 GMT
You create worlds Darrah.. whether it be storybook form.. technology form.. or VR form
That VR thread was for you.. read it.. that is the Form of the Future
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Post by Caylus Ark on Mar 12, 2017 19:48:32 GMT
That is interesting, what's weird is I was told the same thing by this entity that I spoke to for awhile.
But, I still can't accept it. How can I be shining and dark too?
Radiant night.
The moon?
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Post by OYE on Mar 12, 2017 19:51:35 GMT
That is interesting, what's weird is I was told the same thing by this entity that I spoke to for awhile. But, I still can't accept it. How can I be shining and dark too? Radiant night. The moon? You don't have to be dark to work for the Devil Darrah The Devil Controls both sides.. Light and Dark If you want to be a shining light.. be a shining Light Your creativity was a gift Do not fight your gift |
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Post by OYE on Mar 12, 2017 19:54:58 GMT
You are the Devil's Daughter
You don't have to do any rituals for power
You were bestowed that power already
All I ask is don't waste it with an internal dilemma
Focus on Creative Goals with your Creativity and Achieve it
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Post by Caylus Ark on Mar 12, 2017 20:08:52 GMT
That's...actually pretty cool OYE.
And as far as your "reading" goes here, very good.
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Post by Therin on Mar 13, 2017 18:25:58 GMT
"To be a warrior is not a simple matter of wishing to be one. It is rather an endless struggle that will go on to the very last moment of our lives. Nobody is born a warrior, in exactly the same way that nobody is born an average man. We make ourselves into one or the other." -Tales of Power.
"Only as a warrior can one withstand the path of knowledge. A warrior cannot complain or regret anything. His life is an endless challenge, and challenges cannot possibly be good or bad. Challenges are simply challenges." -Tales of Power
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Post by Deleted on Mar 13, 2017 20:13:58 GMT
That is interesting, what's weird is I was told the same thing by this entity that I spoke to for awhile. But, I still can't accept it. How can I be shining and dark too? Radiant night. The moon? You don't have to be dark to work for the Devil Darrah The Devil Controls both sides.. Light and Dark If you want to be a shining light.. be a shining Light Your creativity was a gift Do not fight your gift This is a very insightful post in my opinion, OYE. I agree that the "devil" controls the light and the dark. Polarized light is nearly the same thing as polarized dark - so close to each other - like the head and the tail of the ouroboros. The "devil" controls the time matrix - the binary code - the zeros and the ones, feminine and masculine, nothing and everything. Like the ticking of a grandfather clock - the pendulum of this reality moves back and forth between light and dark to keep the balance. For every wonderful occurrence there must be a terrible one - and vice versa. The only way out of this matrix is to find silence, to go within - to stop the ticking of the clock. To find the in between space of balance to halt the pendulum. Raising one's frequency assists with this as the amplitude of the waves decrease as frequency rises, so the pendulum swings become faster, but also more and more muted until they stop altogether and zero point is reached. When we do this we uncover the holy trinity - our third strand of DNA producing the "trinary" code that is unreadable by the programs of this matrix. Then the devil is undone, and the daughter is born into a new and free existence. With you Kayli - my feeling is that the devil does not want to be undone, and s/he thinks you could play a role. We truly are at crunch time (no pun intended lol). You are acquainted with the dark. I am too. However, you are at a choice point and your abilities are increasing. There are many great ones incarnated now who are meant to bring in the awakening. They are coming together in fact - like you and your pack. Together we are much stronger. Just something to consider. And when that being comes back - if it does - its purpose is to radiate fear to lower your vibration. Once you work on yourself to raise your vibration, they will no longer be able to reach you. |
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Post by Caylus Ark on Mar 14, 2017 5:04:00 GMT
You don't have to be dark to work for the Devil Darrah The Devil Controls both sides.. Light and Dark If you want to be a shining light.. be a shining Light Your creativity was a gift Do not fight your gift This is a very insightful post in my opinion, OYE. I agree that the "devil" controls the light and the dark. Polarized light is nearly the same thing as polarized dark - so close to each other - like the head and the tail of the ouroboros. The "devil" controls the time matrix - the binary code - the zeros and the ones, feminine and masculine, nothing and everything. Like the ticking of a grandfather clock - the pendulum of this reality moves back and forth between light and dark to keep the balance. For every wonderful occurrence there must be a terrible one - and vice versa. The only way out of this matrix is to find silence, to go within - to stop the ticking of the clock. To find the in between space of balance to halt the pendulum. Raising one's frequency assists with this as the amplitude of the waves decrease as frequency rises, so the pendulum swings become faster, but also more and more muted until they stop altogether and zero point is reached. When we do this we uncover the holy trinity - our third strand of DNA producing the "trinary" code that is unreadable by the programs of this matrix. Then the devil is undone, and the daughter is born into a new and free existence. With you Kayli - my feeling is that the devil does not want to be undone, and s/he thinks you could play a role. We truly are at crunch time (no pun intended lol). You are acquainted with the dark. I am too. However, you are at a choice point and your abilities are increasing. There are many great ones incarnated now who are meant to bring in the awakening. They are coming together in fact - like you and your pack. Together we are much stronger. Just something to consider. And when that being comes back - if it does - its purpose is to radiate fear to lower your vibration. Once you work on yourself to raise your vibration, they will no longer be able to reach you. This is an amazing post! thank you for the insight andrea. Yes, we are coming together now. We are finding one another. I think if you've been touched by the dark - trauma and shame and self-loathing - there is a piece of you open to those dark forces, to being puppeteered by them. That, this kind of pain creates an inroad as such, that can be used to access you by these forces. I think you basically stated, the "devil" is the Saturn energy. Time itself. The law of equivalent exchange... "you cannot have anything without giving something in return" |
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Post by hi on Mar 15, 2017 22:26:05 GMT
How can I be shining and dark too? What is so dark about you? What are your darkest qualities, dont be shy. I bet they are not that bad at all, you are just being harsh like usual. You want to kick puppies? Urinate in your mothers breakfast cereal? Put some kittens in the microwave? Defecate on some puppies faces and then roast them over a fire to eat? Fantasize about robbing school children at their bus stop? Or is your darkness, to you, for you, what you mean by darkness, your feelings that you dont know if you can fully commit to saving the world, that you have been engrained in some sense to feel disgusted at any type of selfishness, so you think taking care of yourself, loving yourself, wanting good for yourself, focusing on yourself, is dark? Or more in some gothic sense? I mean, your mentions of bapohmet, and what not, related to satanism, at least of what I know of light notions of satanism if pretty much just, focus on yourself, and you have spent a lot of energy focusing on the world, so is this darkness just; I want to wear black and stop thinking about anyone other than me? and/or graffti and break windows for fun, and steal old womens purses and knock them over? Anything to do with maybe, potentially, uneasy feelings about the potential, that you might enjoy wallowing in sadness/despair, its comfortable? An easiness, a simplicity, a familiarity, that you dont think you can put on a pink dress and make up and waltz down hollywood boulvard and be a model, so you must or might be dark and broody and moody and despairing? Sorry if I seem like a jerk at all, I genuinely just want you to be healthy, happy, good, alright, great, ever better. |
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Post by Advice on Mar 15, 2017 23:42:03 GMT
Well maybe it is true that you have been messing around with these forces too long, but not in the sense that it is "too late" already. Just that it is a time that darkness will try to encroach upon you further and claim what it thinks is owed. In one of these threads I have been delving into I saw someone say you tend to dive head first into things and really get into a subject. Maybe the opposite could help? At least a temorary break from all this stuff, the more occult side of things. And while doing this fill your mind with light-hearted things that uplift your whole being.
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Post by Caylus Ark on Mar 16, 2017 2:32:06 GMT
Staring into the void. Having it stare back. Having seen..."the ends of this world", into the next. Having seen the darkest layers of reality. Stuff people simply aren't meant to see. Looking into subject matter that should not exist.
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Post by Advice and positivity on Mar 16, 2017 4:21:01 GMT
Staring into the void. Having it stare back. Having seen..."the ends of this world", into the next. Having seen the darkest layers of reality. Stuff people simply aren't meant to see. Looking into subject matter that should not exist. Maybe time to get away from this stuff? I know that is hard though, it has lasting effects... however even taking a break might be good and see what happens? And you know saying you are Satan's daughter and saying/implying your are already beyond any form of help is a form of controlling someone but also a sign that maybe there are some things you should stop doing/avoid. Although I have heard that it is used when someone is just trying to break free of the control.You have a dog right? I saw in one of the threads on this website, I have one too they are so great. Going for long walks with your dog could take your mind off things rather than being on your own or with a friend/collegue. Creating or looking for events/situations that bring a child-like joy to your heart can be very uplifting and good for you too. Regardless, I tried to find some videos that make me feel warm and fuzzy inside and make me laugh like an idiot lol so hopefully they can bring you some positivity  this next one is pretty long and I can't get the link to start from the start for some reason /wholesomememes on reddit is great too |
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Post by I dun goofed on Mar 16, 2017 4:25:49 GMT
Woops, I didn't realize any emoji I type turns into a wolf/dog? lol it was a smiley face that I typed. Also I did not realize the links would be embedded and playable through the forum without needing any adjustment, sorry about the terrible formatting.
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this next one is pretty long and I can't get the link to start from the start for some reason /wholesomememes on reddit is great too