[ti]heart[/ti]sincere and corny things I want to share tonight
Sept 16, 2016 0:12:48 GMT
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Post by Caylus Ark on Sept 16, 2016 0:12:48 GMT
I just got home from work. It's really great to see everybody here, if you are here....this is a ramble that was supposed to be just one reply on that thread but I think it might as well just buck up based on how long it ended up being. And it's partly an apology too...
I am hoping we can all assume the best about each other until proven otherwise, even if it's just to humor me...
I don't think attacking one another is wise. Can we all try and support each other?
I considered GLP part of my family too, until they kicked me out of it, despite everything...
There is weird fuckity stuff going on, but the way it truly breaks you down is by destroying your ability to trust anybody.
I used to be the trust nobody type...and I know this is just an internet forum, but...
If it's just that, let's exchange good energy with one another.
I know I'm being slightly hypocritical considering I've been on a tirade about the Facts crew. Maybe I've stirred it up in my own way, an aggressive energy here, so I do blame myself in that sense...
I was thinking about something though.
I honestly believe nobody would have ever gone to glp or ever come here if we didn't all share something really important ...have something big in common
including the people I sincerely dislike, they share this...je nais se quoi too...or none of us would have crossed paths
I don't think I'm only speaking for myself in saying that while I connect to those I know, there is something "odd" about me that seems peculiar to myself...
but I found it for the first time in the others from places like these, and I find myself grateful for that, despite the fallout, and despite the insanity.
There is something different about us all...
That's why we are here...or there....
Let's help each other find the truth...
In order to do that, assumptions have to be set aside...
Everybody deserves a couple of chances, everybody deserves the benefit of the doubt. IMO...
Honestly, we are all more the same then we are different
and when we attempt, even just as a thought experiment, to think about the ways we are the same, we realize that in almost every way that counts, we can relate to even what we consider the least desirable in humanity...
When we are honest, we realize grave flaws are often more a matter of taste then of judgement.
plus, of course, that which we despise in another is nothing more than a reflection of what we hate in ourselves...
" understanding is the root of love " - it's true, and the inverse too...
(well, hatred is closer to love then indifference...nothing frustrates the emotionally invested like dispassion...it's a blade)
I made a conviction to myself a long time ago. It wasn't to prove anything to anybody else, or to engender a way of appearing. It was just for my own integrity. I decided I would do my best to be HONEST with myself, and to be sincere with others - not to tell the truth all the time, but when I say things, to stand behind them with my true soul on the line, even if the gesture is nothing more than a totem of my own promise, it has great ramifications in my own heart - and at the end of things, we can't choose for anybody else. and we don't live or sleep or die with their choices. only our own...
I'm just a human, prone to brattiness, anger, compulsivity, laziness, and pouting. All bad human traits...yes, I am a broken gem. And even a diamond is mined with blood.
Our vulnerabilities are what make us interesting. We all have them.
Sometimes, people who aren't aware of their vulnerabilities leave their shadow to fester, denying it's providence.
And then, they begin to fade into the shadow of their shadow, unaware of what it is they feel anymore, because it has been so long denied...
That is an extreme case of course. It's just what happens when you push away the ugliness, instead of looking straight at the ugliness and accepting it as a part of who you are. Sometimes, people who are conduits for unconscious impulses act out in ways that are synchronistic in the worst of ways - they begin acting out your own unconscious drama for you, without even realizing it...
It's a theme of Hyperdimensional Warfare. It was Seer actually who showed me this thread when I first came to glp. It's Chip's. But take a look before you dismiss it. Trust me on this one. It's very important.
www.godlikeproductions.com/forum1/message2474395/pg1
There are many layers to what is real. And more then what we know is real - that's actually what that latin in my new tagline is about.
There are crawling bots on google that track information about you, and there are probably archons that track you too. In wondering about the nature of this world we live in, I really hope we can all remember to never lose track of what really matters. We are here, present for the experience of being alive. I may be convinced there is much more to the dream/riddle of existing, but it is all we know for certain, that we are now. And we are....
So this experience, this virtual reality mind we inhabit, is our whole world....
But, only in the act of sharing do we become real....
So what do we want to share? A dream or a nightmare?
There is no wrong answer.
Thank you everyone...
I am hoping we can all assume the best about each other until proven otherwise, even if it's just to humor me...
I don't think attacking one another is wise. Can we all try and support each other?
I considered GLP part of my family too, until they kicked me out of it, despite everything...
There is weird fuckity stuff going on, but the way it truly breaks you down is by destroying your ability to trust anybody.
I used to be the trust nobody type...and I know this is just an internet forum, but...
If it's just that, let's exchange good energy with one another.
I know I'm being slightly hypocritical considering I've been on a tirade about the Facts crew. Maybe I've stirred it up in my own way, an aggressive energy here, so I do blame myself in that sense...
I was thinking about something though.
I honestly believe nobody would have ever gone to glp or ever come here if we didn't all share something really important ...have something big in common
including the people I sincerely dislike, they share this...je nais se quoi too...or none of us would have crossed paths
I don't think I'm only speaking for myself in saying that while I connect to those I know, there is something "odd" about me that seems peculiar to myself...
but I found it for the first time in the others from places like these, and I find myself grateful for that, despite the fallout, and despite the insanity.
There is something different about us all...
That's why we are here...or there....
Let's help each other find the truth...
In order to do that, assumptions have to be set aside...
Everybody deserves a couple of chances, everybody deserves the benefit of the doubt. IMO...
Honestly, we are all more the same then we are different
and when we attempt, even just as a thought experiment, to think about the ways we are the same, we realize that in almost every way that counts, we can relate to even what we consider the least desirable in humanity...
When we are honest, we realize grave flaws are often more a matter of taste then of judgement.
plus, of course, that which we despise in another is nothing more than a reflection of what we hate in ourselves...
" understanding is the root of love " - it's true, and the inverse too...
(well, hatred is closer to love then indifference...nothing frustrates the emotionally invested like dispassion...it's a blade)
I made a conviction to myself a long time ago. It wasn't to prove anything to anybody else, or to engender a way of appearing. It was just for my own integrity. I decided I would do my best to be HONEST with myself, and to be sincere with others - not to tell the truth all the time, but when I say things, to stand behind them with my true soul on the line, even if the gesture is nothing more than a totem of my own promise, it has great ramifications in my own heart - and at the end of things, we can't choose for anybody else. and we don't live or sleep or die with their choices. only our own...
I'm just a human, prone to brattiness, anger, compulsivity, laziness, and pouting. All bad human traits...yes, I am a broken gem. And even a diamond is mined with blood.
Our vulnerabilities are what make us interesting. We all have them.
Sometimes, people who aren't aware of their vulnerabilities leave their shadow to fester, denying it's providence.
And then, they begin to fade into the shadow of their shadow, unaware of what it is they feel anymore, because it has been so long denied...
That is an extreme case of course. It's just what happens when you push away the ugliness, instead of looking straight at the ugliness and accepting it as a part of who you are. Sometimes, people who are conduits for unconscious impulses act out in ways that are synchronistic in the worst of ways - they begin acting out your own unconscious drama for you, without even realizing it...
It's a theme of Hyperdimensional Warfare. It was Seer actually who showed me this thread when I first came to glp. It's Chip's. But take a look before you dismiss it. Trust me on this one. It's very important.
www.godlikeproductions.com/forum1/message2474395/pg1
There are many layers to what is real. And more then what we know is real - that's actually what that latin in my new tagline is about.
There are crawling bots on google that track information about you, and there are probably archons that track you too. In wondering about the nature of this world we live in, I really hope we can all remember to never lose track of what really matters. We are here, present for the experience of being alive. I may be convinced there is much more to the dream/riddle of existing, but it is all we know for certain, that we are now. And we are....
So this experience, this virtual reality mind we inhabit, is our whole world....
But, only in the act of sharing do we become real....
So what do we want to share? A dream or a nightmare?
There is no wrong answer.
Thank you everyone...
