[ti]butterfly[/ti]Random Gratitude

I had a quick look at the list - it´s a polarizing read. Many valid points, but too much testosterone for my taste.

lol... well that didn't work out (fuck)

When did you do this?! It´s like you plucked an image out of my mind - a graffiti that looks like that, I have it saved somewhere. As soon as I find it (the struggle of pics on several devices), I am going to upload it. Can take a while though, as I´m slowly uploading plenty of pictures to a photo blog. But I will get back to that!!!

*hugs*

Zen I don't take you as rude, I enjoy the conversation.

You have grand fuckin' timing you know, last night I started working on a post which I probably won't post, not out of denying you (all) my innermost thoughts & shitty misunderstood humor (humour for Brits) but because it just isn't quite ready...

Now I edit your last post. Your post read "you know, sometimes" but just how I forgot to put a comma a few posts above which essentially made a double negative, I'm going to do the opposite & remove your comma.

*Edited to: "you know sometimes.... (key word sometimes)"

You know... if I kept a journal it would look something like this:

Wednesday, February 1st
FTW... just kidding, WTF ... WTF... WTF... with opportunity for eventual win(s)
My snowglobe got shaken ridiculously and it's fucking cold so I'm going in to my fucking cave.
< end of journal >

So about that Dark Triad Man thing... I stumbled on to some other references to the word in which weren't exactly... I'm at a loss for the right word, but that's why I hadn't sent the post yet, still making sense of it all.  This is why your input (Zen) was so awesome btw...  And along the way I stumbled across some unrelated info that really clarified some unrelated stuff and was like fuck... fuck... fuck... (please excuse my American). So any way, I had all this Gratitude to give & Apologies too, which could have been posted on the 'Keeping Myself Humble' Thread (on this forum), but I only have managed to actually clarify part of it thus far, so.... Fuck me ("win some, you lose some, life in a nutshell")

*hug* & a *smile*

*hugs again*

Swear away and don't apologise, I think I do understand, be it British or American, and I don't have a problem with swearing either. You should hear me at times, a close friend of mine is still shocked about how I can swear. She has to get used to it, ffs! It's a sure sign for impending period, and I'm convinced men get their period as well. They can count themselves lucky that they're not bleeding during those days (I like talking about that. It's sort of a taboo for Muricans I figured, and that makes it even more funny).

In regards to spelling, if it's a screen keyboard, I've set it to UK English because I'm living in Europe. Doesn't matter though, when I think of it.

Ive given up on writing diaries, because it often starts and end in swearing. The internetz is my diary now - the meanwhile three fora I'm a member of (that's enough!)

So, what I did get from your post is, you're doing fine and are pretty normal - lame word I know - just like the whole time we were talking One thing leads to the other, and you had / have lots wtf heureka moments currently, giving your best in sorting and integrating, while grasping to find the accurate expression, however failing in daring to just post away. Or so.

Zen, I'm going to accuse you of something, I hope you don't mind... You' are fucking awesome!
The moment a non-swear word delivers the same impact maybe I'll reconsider using swear words. Also, a good test for the person in front of you.

It seems like two that liquids that combined amount to so much of our existence are so undervalued in the appreciation of, blood & water. I hear they have striking similarities.
Props to Source for the water appreciation btw, thanks for sharing.

I'm no longer a bodybuilder but when I did I lived for the pump, I'm intimate with the blood that courses through my veins, I've tasted it and it although I don't know how to describe it, my dog licks the inside of my wrists and my cats bit them, the elixir of life it is said... I know what it feels like to lose it, even if not once a month, I could imagine that's a pain in the ass but I hear that by doing such that females are able to rid themselves of toxicities such as iron, maybe that's why women outlive men on average... Taboo for what reason?

And me, I'm doing fine, I am lame, I am grateful for it though because in a sense it is perfect, defined as whole & complete.

I liked your songs btw

Sometimes I call myself The Queen Of Fucking Everything, so there´s that 

Swearing usually is a sign of honesty, or honest people.

It depends on the occasion though, and I surely use it at times to test the waters 
before getting familiar with people, as it is polarizing. 
When they know me, I can swear as much as I want and it gets tolerated.

German swear words sound way more brutal than english ones also.
Those who can´t stand it stay away, and I´m absolutely fine with that 

It´s interesting you say you were a pumper - 
I tried to change my physique from petit to buff when I was a teen.
It was futile though, as I didn´t take any substances except legal available stuff, 
carbohydrates and such.

The people in the studio were really nice but so un-intelligent,
I dropped the weights after a year and started clubbing for a few years instead 
Making peace not only with my bodily constitution made me appreciate
my look over the years also. Anyway...

The blood is holy/sacred, as is water. It´s too much I could say about it so I don´t get into detail here,
otherwise I don´t get off the screen this evening, and I have some things on my to do list still.
Taboo maybe was exaggerated, but my experience is, when I posted about it and wanted 
to talk about premenstrual syndrome for example and how to deal with it, without popping
stuff from the pharma industry, I mostly got an Ewwww, and then silence.

I don´t suffer pertaining to menstruating, no physical pain.
The days before can cause PMS though,and this is comparable to
I Want To Watch The World BURN!!!

My theory is, it´s the eggs seeping their frustration of dying into the mind,
amongst other factors of increased sensitivity to all kinds of repression
in regards to female cycles and energy sensitivities -
as if I do feel even more than on other days for the collective itself.
The bleeding itself never ceases to fascinate, and I agree to it´s detoxifying aspects.

Animals are so sweet and caring as they smell it,
they actually do caress me more than when I´m not on period.

Women often do outlive men because they tend to listen more closely to their body.
Men can listen to what their bodies tell them too, I´m absolutely sure about that.

Whew... I´m on a posting roll, and though I said I have to do other things,
I´m going to continue talking to Seer on her Mad World thread now.
I won´t link to there, as I dig Seer very much, but GLP itself was and is too nasty
to get any revenue from here.
Shit, this place here wouldn´t even exist weren`t GLP so cruel... but still, nope.

Instead, I´ll link again to another forum, in fact it´s the place where
many peeps from GMG gather - the pink experiment of GLP that lastet
from Jan 2015 until Dec 25, 2015. It´s called IceCreamOnMars,
and it´s a fun place for lull, but also deep convo if you like.

It synchs with Source´s thread about water, 
and actually was started a few days ago:

Videos about Water

So, thank you for your attention,
keep on rocking and rolling,
and see ya soon