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Post by visitorshost on Jun 12, 2020 0:43:22 GMT
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Post by visitorshost on Jun 12, 2020 0:44:46 GMT
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Post by visitorshost on Jun 12, 2020 0:46:53 GMT
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Post by visitorshost on Jun 12, 2020 0:48:39 GMT
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Post by visitorshost on Jun 12, 2020 0:51:12 GMT
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Post by visitorshost on Jun 12, 2020 0:52:27 GMT
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Post by visitorshost on Jun 12, 2020 1:07:35 GMT
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Post by visitorshost on Jun 12, 2020 14:48:07 GMT
. Spontaneous ponderings.
I'm sorry I hurt others when our interactions threw us into major force play. I fucked up. But somehow in a twisted way it had to happen... Bare with me.. this is bigger then us and we gotta step up now. Times demands more of us now.
My life turmoil set things in motion way beyond... It was so horrific not being able to snap the fuck out of the grip I felt around my spine / nervous system.
I wish to God others would be given awareness about the hardcore presense of non material / non 3D "materia" forces that stretched through veils into my body.
Both major powers of darkness and light.
I don't write this to be another egocentric narcissistic wannabee of anykind, be it a magician OR chosen one.
I only share this openly, despite my double scorpio influence alerting me to keep silent as I feel deeper mysteries are so personal.... But to hell with my at times overkill withdrawal.
I just can't stand more fuss or damn paparazzi deep state harassments...
With that said
I was given proof that my AURA was violated and under both attack AND influenced by the darker root death tones AND shadow powers as well as the Eye of Providence... INSIDE the black cloud hoovering around the brain tumor in my neck.
The black cloud was seen through an advanced diagnostic tool developed by a genius who's IQ is so high that earth instrument cannot measure. He was headhunted / recruited to work for NASA as Engineer at among other things the Apollo 11 project.
I has sensors around my feet, wrists and skull, and was hooked up to the Quantum Software.
It proved other things as well.
Another tech is a Camera that Photographed my AURA in the late 1990's.
Due to the Revelation of my very unique Rainbow LightBody, the satanic deep state removed that specific camera in question from the Spiritual Expo when I went back after the Filtering of my Polaroid had become known to Insiders.
Why??? Because They don't want YOU to see or study YOUR AURA or know about Your energy LightBody...
In short. I have proof validating that I am very very unique. Just stating that is extremely triggering to many around me. Others have felt strongly, and reacted to me my whole life. It's like I stir things up, even without any desire to do so!!!
What I've come to understand through the years, is that
We are all pure energy
Anyone can develop a Rainbow body BUT we are all under attack...
I'm not special but I could be having a special function as a conduit.
Others around me kept secrets about me, to manipulate me to become something that I'm not. I was sadly on Their radar already when my mother was pregnant with me.
During my time in my mothers womb, supernatural things started hapoening to my family, all of those involved are now dead, murdered.
Black Op's drama started, my dad, The Professional, had to do certain things, the files are marked in black.
He had to keep secrets from my mom who was in shock, surrounded by deep state handlers who was sent in to fuck her up to get me confiscated by the deep state, who at my birth rigged the Monarch MK Ultra programming...
Dad went to Germany and Amsterdam ALOT after international intel got him in his grip... I have been left breadcrumbs through his postcards and gifts... I feel like Sophie in The Da Vinci Code, having a Secret Society Master prepping her by stealth.
I fell out with my dad just like she, and my dad was murdered just like in the movie... It torments me. I now realize my parents and others was in a very tight spot and I was too young, society was not yet technologically advanced for certain understanding.
I had to live through certain crises experiences to become "in the know" of things I would never understand unless it had happened to me...
One reason for me sharing is that the dangers to the world trumps my personal risk. I am second to all of you. You are my priority. Higher powers drives me to expose myself as this really is all about YOU. Not me. I'm just a Messenger.
It upsets me that others insist on twisting everything to push the focus on me... I however understand why, but I hope to ease and calm down your curiosity.
I'm a middle aged, quarantine fluffy, tired and fucked up, messed up woman, lol. Thank God for makeup, as this battle carved foxholes under my eyes.
I have no kids. I was shocked to find myself pregnant after new year 2005 after my prayer to God to give me a sign OR I would leave this world. I had already let go, said my Goodbye inside as I sat with others around the Christmas dinner table.
The boyfriend isn't important, he had zero occult awareness, he just functioned as a suitable, EXTREMELY masculine bait that had to be there to add to my story leading me here...
In short, if he hadn't been so charming, sexy, I wouldn't have been here.
But it was painful, I lost the child, not in any ordinary way either. The featus went missing from the fostersack. The body had no idea, so my pregnancy could have gone full term which is dangerous as the body develops double blood system. They performed surgery on me.
I almost went crazy. My body nervous system went into shock and they had to take me to hospital as the chest wouldn't expand.
I suspect the murder attempt to strangle me in 1998 lead to phrenic nerve injury.
I searched on MILAB missing featus and was supported by other targeted MILAB women who had missing featuses, and, like me, often woke up with needle marks, suction marks from instruments, bruisers on inside thighs etc.
Could be of interest to look up how some Bloodline SRA Monarch MK Ultra are used as "Breeders". I have had so many months with missing periods and weight gain and belly stretched out as If I've had more pregnancies ending in featuses removed.
See X-files, Agent Scully had her neck surgery at same place as me also. She was hinted at being a breeder for deep state, probably due to Haplogroups, RH Neg bloodtype or hybrid Alien DNA.
My mother had VERY rare bloodtype but I don't remember which in specific.
Anyway.
A unique prophetic dream in 2006 started my posting outside Sweden. And my first encounter with GLP was 2007.
The Return of The Bride, by Lotusflower, in, I think 2007, and a post about The Pyramid of Giza, was used to ping me. And then here we are.
As I said before, I've been through so much that I prefer I died long long ago but everytime I tried to end it, extreme things happened. Once I was gonna drown myself in a violent stream but a force pushed me down some stairs til I got knocked out. I still have bumps on the front of my lower legs as scars.
Powers keeps me here and I wish it was different... But I am aware I have to stick around.
The extreme sorrows and physical pain, injuries and targeting lead to me feeling I have no real life, since long ago... BUT I focus on You now.
I understand I'm a tool, so to become pure for Your sake, I had to clear out fucked up shit some of you got involved in and affected by...
Me as this little person sitting here typing this wish I would dissapear and avoid all this
The "extended" me take fully charge to enter a higher love, Mastership, refinement, for a higher purpose way beyond this pathetic asshole me.
I gotta do it. No more can I accept being a fucked up vessel who's possible entanglement could cause harm to my environment.
For this, I need to release old trauma from my 3 lower chakras, which affects you.
I don't mean to hurt anyone with this process, but I have to stand my ground, for our mutual benefit...
I will do my best, to be as good as I possibly can, but my deep trauma will go through healing crises as I rise (with you / you all).
I will express and share videos that may trigger memories and feelings, I don't mean to harm. Please see my long post about breaking the Seals in Book of Revelation, linked to our 7 chakras.
Since my AURA is entangled with yours, please realize that unless I heal old ROOT trauma, the chaos will be horrific.
I plead to you to help me heal. Please don't act out. Try your best to remember why I do this...
Others got entangled with me, and to others in my life...
I honour You other women who did get entagled, because you play important part as conduits. We all attract and repell in this cosmic chaotic mind fuck Heroes Journey through Archetypes...
I'm more mature now. I literally was tortured for so many many years I had no real access to my own self.
Please get to know me. You are the reason I stayed alive. I'm not important. There are powers who use me as a medium to reach through, and THAT is important.
I sincerely hope you can help me become a better person and conduit, for our mutual benefit.
If I fuck up, it will fuck up your life too... I don't want that. If you fuck with me, shit happens...
If others used me to hurt you, that must be healed now. I wont allow it to continue. These times should be proof enough that we must try to improve and heal without destroying others spirit.
The 3 lower chakras / seals, involve ATTRACTION forces. Sex. Love. Death and Life challenges.
Like I wrote before, I'm hooked into a network against my will. That "system" involves Quantum AI. Players fight over that tech
I am not responsible for the shit They do. And They want us to fight, so They can ruin our future.
Please help me keep OUR focus on OUR priorities, as They will try to both stir up dreams linked to root needs ~ leading to broken hearts, sexual desires, jealously, romantic illusions.
I try to be open though and express those feelings through videos, poems, images etc, as I was forced to veil myself.
The Apocalypse means unveiling.
If I ever have a partner in the future he has to have cleaned up his old root chakra drama that involves hurting others. I have no time or interest in engaging with immature men.
He has to be fully aware of his influence and cannot seek out triangulation to stir up shit for me.
Remember what goes through me...
They want me to turn into a killer.
The WetWare monitoring register my impulses, and the system has started killing of some under this Corona Ooeration. It started earlier, like those who fucked with me ended up in physical, mental, emotional trouble.
A feeling is so fast and They mirror that constantly. I am concerned if I wish someone to go away and they wont respect my signal, that person is deleted...
I try soooo hard to warn others, but incredibly enough some seem to take it as a challenge...?!
It's not a sexy power play trigger, it's not a sexy spy game, this is very serious. Not fun, not cool!!
They use Your entanglement with me to hurt all...
This is why I post this.
I work VERY hard on improving. Please don't hold my fucked up mistakes against me, for our sake, ~~~ not "to spare me" to avoid gulit or responsibility, (cause my pain never ends so I will always suffer the consequences) ~~~ BUT, I want a better future, if not for us to enjoy, then for the innocent ones...
Please understand.
I hope you all respect The Powers involved, that stream through us.
I hope no one will try to seduce me as a sport, for the thrill of it. There's so many willing out there who gladly could play such games with players.
I will express my full spectrum emotions. That involves sexual, sensual and powerful sides of Archetypes... You cannot be a handler that directs me, but you may tell me if you feel I should tone down the volume IF you sense the shadow powers push me too far...
IF anyone feel attraction, or repelled by me, then be careful about that shadow we would work through, involving territorial competition around ego, others involved as players... They may get drawn in for multiple reasons. How do we handle that?
...we are sadly also entangled through a hostile, disturbed WetWare Operation, and dark psychopath sadistic narcissistic networks monitoring us. We must help reach through Their attacks and remind each other to refocus.
Thank you kindly! To you who feel called, lets do this!
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Post by visitorshost on Jun 12, 2020 14:51:21 GMT
Damn sexy song, just cause we love music. about being seduced by chemical reactions then the day after arrives... then what
Hit and run encounters could stir things for years...
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Post by visitorshost on Jun 12, 2020 15:32:42 GMT
To the deep state handlers
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Post by visitorshost on Jun 12, 2020 15:57:00 GMT
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Post by visitorshost on Jun 12, 2020 16:05:38 GMT
Damn good torture by YT beasts This makes me wanna end my celibasy, lol
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Post by visitorshost on Jun 12, 2020 16:44:09 GMT
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Post by idk on Jun 12, 2020 16:54:59 GMT
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Post by visitorshost on Jun 12, 2020 17:45:08 GMT
Epic cover, to all my new friends Love ❤️ Peace 🕊️ As we follow the white rabbit 🐰
Every time when I look in the mirror all these lines on my face getting clearer the past is gone it went by, like dusk to dawn isn't that the way everybody's got the dues in life to pay
I know nobody knows where it comes and where it goes I know it's everybody sin you got to lose to know how to win
half my life is books, written pages live and learn from fools and from sages you know it's true, oh all these feelings come back to you
sing with me, sing for the years sing for the laughter, sing for the tears sing with me, just for today maybe tomorrow the good Lord will take you away
Dream on Dream until your dreams come true
🙏
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Post by visitorshost on Jun 12, 2020 18:03:40 GMT
Thanks for being "crazy" enough to be innocently playful with me. Very healing... I feel so free now... Years of tensions slowly departing. Crying a lot, so much I held in... You help elevate my hot air baloon... let's lift off, to be on top of the world!
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Post by visitorshost on Jun 12, 2020 18:13:22 GMT
God, I got so relaxed I could fall asleep It's only 8 pm... Warm evening... Swallows outside, amazing air acrobats the blackbirds beautiful songs, soothing You help me cross over the turmoil
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Post by visitorshost on Jun 12, 2020 18:16:01 GMT
Time to let go of all your burdens
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Post by visitorshost on Jun 12, 2020 18:22:39 GMT
Sexy, sensual evening tunes
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Post by visitorshost on Jun 12, 2020 18:29:52 GMT
Chillaxin...
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